Even as a little child I felt always different then the others. I had these feeling that I am seeing the world around me clearer then my family. I can remember that I have memories from the age of three (I know that this is very early, but I asked my mother and she confirmed them...).
At the beginning was these feeling of being forlorn. My mum had to work to earn money for us, so she searched for someone to look after me. After publishing an announcement she found a German woman who accepted to take me (the child of a migrant worker!) and look after me. That was the start of a time full of pain and fear for me. This woman had the oppinion that she had to civilise me because I came from a savage culture (pah! the ignorance of some people in this world is unbelieveable!!). She showed me a few years later two pictures from me, where she proofed her success. The time she started to look after me, my mother lived in the same city like her, so she brought me every morning to her and picked me up every evening. The mother of that woman was alive at that time, so she was relatively nice to me. After the death of her mother my live became very hard. I liked her mother and I liked that German correctness (my clothes were always clean and ironed, I always got my meals in time...), but she changed after the death of her mother.
She lost very fast her nerves and started to hit me
everytime I did something wrong (in her eyes of course wrong!). So I feared her very much and this fear resulted in more faults what resulted in more penalties. She spoke trash about my mum, our culture, our religion and tried to change me completely. I started to learn Christian prayers, was forced to eat whatever she cooked (her husband was a butcher and he made his own meat and sausages and so on...) and a short time later I forgot even my mothertongue. I became a civilised German girl.
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